(photo by Davore Michelle)

10 Questions I Recently Asked Myself:

1)  What do you look for in a guy?

            Integrity is the most attractive quality in a man...a man who keeps his word...a man I can trust.

2)  Am I happy in my career?

            No.  I don't feel that I have integrity because I lie to myself about what I am supposed to be focusing my energy on.  I wait until the last minute.  I tell all my trade secrets, and then all my ideas are stolen from me and I never get paid for them.  I don't act fast enough, and I don't capitalize on the moment enough.  I sit and wait and wait and wait.  I wait until I am unoriginal and I thought of the idea first.

3)  Am I really in love?

            Opps, I did it again.  I am in love with every man I have ever met.  That is my problem.  I love them all.

4)  Do I have integrity in my acting career?

            No, because I've shown up late to the most major of auditions.  I dread being famous, and I also dread working on my craft.  I want everyone to love me unconditionally without much having to work at it.

5)  Do you have everything you want?

            I have a lot of things I want.  I have an active imagination and vision.  I have a family who loves me.  I have really nice friends, and people who care about me in my life.  I have beauty and radiant health.  I am smart and sexy and I love.  I get rejected far to often than my fragile little ego can handle, and for this I am trying to stay in the present and get real with myself....that's why I have to look in this mirror.

6)  Am I insane?

        Yes, anyone who would do this is insane.

7)  Where do I see myself in my greatest life?

        On the cover of Vogue and Rolling Stone, wearing Gucci and going home to my favorite man - who would be there waiting for me and cooking dinner for us.  Actually,  I think even cooler would be if we were both superstars like John and Yoko and we had a photo shoot together.  In either case, I would live in Bel Air and have four kids, who would all be raised nicely without addictions.  I'd spend time in New York, France and Japan, and anywhere else in the world with sacred sites and fabulous relaxations.  Am I immature for believing in fantasy?  Maybe, but at least I have direction.

8)  Am I trying to communicate with anyone in particular?

        Yes.  And you know who you are...but I don't really know anything at all about fate or the nonsense of mystery.  I am surrounded by fish, and I'm probably going to marry one soon.  Unless, God takes hold of me and whispers in my ear I am either home, or going home soon.

9)  Will I die single, lonely and afraid?

        No.  I will be single, that's a lie.  I will not die single.  I will be with an old man named Jeff, at my ranch in Taos, NM, painting the days away like Grandma Moses.  I will be old and sexy still, beautiful and fulfilled.  You are all welcome to come to my healing ranch and detox.

10)  Will my theories make a difference in the world?

        Yes.  I have to believe they already have.  I have to believe that I will have the opportunity to study more psychology, become a real therapist and have my own tv show.  I believe that my paintings will one day be in museums.  I will be a famous psychologist...even if I'm dead.  I may already be famous but there are those out there who hate me and want me to die.  I will be a famous thinker, painter, artist, healer, singer, model, actress, director, mom and friend....most lovingly today, I am Auntie JoJo.

One thing I learned from this vanity project is that nothing really matters in this world if I'm not using my God-given talents toward healing and empowering humanity.  I want to make a difference in the world in a positive way through my acting, directing, writing, website, music, talk show, psychology, by being a friend, a loving partner, a supportive member of my family.  Material manifestations simply color the world, but what really matters to me is how I use my days and am I being productive.  I don't know where my life will take me, who I will spend my time with or anything else unknowable like the future, but one thing I do know is that I've got to take loving actions everyday that make my life a better world.  One day at a time, action by action, creating good karma.

Love is Mystical!

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